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trusting your soul’s joy

April 22nd, 2006

Hello Garret!!! My name is Sam and I live in San Juan, PR. I write because I need some guidence. For the past year and a half I have been studying for a bachelor in teaching. Scince I was little, I honestly believed, and use to say to my parents that I was ment to do a great thing in this world and that I was going to make a difference, “you’ll see” I used to say. I also used to say that I was going to be a famous singer, for I love music and it makes my soul happy (as it does many other peolple in the world). Singing makes me complete, I realy feel i am doing something.

When I got into college I began my studies in music, but that went no where. I stoped believing in my self. So, I decided to become a techer. I thought to my self “what better way to make a difference?” and I believed it, still do. But I do not want to fight for it.

Now I have the chance to do music, it always comes back to me. Just when I stop, it always comes back looking for me. People believe in me, and they work with me, they look for me and I even don’t know why. Some how this opportunity come knocking in my life again and again.

I feel like I am waisting my time in college, that the only reason I am doing this is to have a second plan, because my dad wants me to have a bachelors and to have someting secure for my future. But I’m going to be unhappy. This is not what I wish to do.

I have been struggeling to believe in my self. I start anything and anything around and I leave it. I never finish what I start, BECAUSE I stop believing in me, in my ideas, in what I have. I don’t even believe in those who believe in me.

Garret, I don’t want to waste my life. I don’t want to continue in school. I need to release my fear, Garret. I need to stop thinking big and start thinking in the small steps to take … then the big reward will come. Right?.

You see I know all this. Somehow I do (sometimes I know things that I did not even know I know). Help!

Thanks. Greetings from the Caribbean and all the best of succes with your ideas.

Sam

Follow your heart, and realize you will be tested on your devotion. You know you want to be a singer. You know you can be a teacher. If you were the hero of a movie, what would you want to see you do? What would you tell you (the hero) to do?

If you choose what your heart wants you embark on your persoanl “Hero’s Journey.” Things may become very difficult for you on this journey, but deep down you will feel the joy and elation of trusting your soul’s joy. If you choose what you have been told all your life is the “responsible” choice, then you will feel comfortably numb. How do you want to spend your life, comfortable and numb or challenged and alive?

Right now, it sounds like you do not have any children or difficult responsibilities. That means you are completely liberated to do whatever you want to do with no guilt.

Have you read my book? In it there is a speech in my book by Steve Jobs that speaks to your exact situation. He chose the road less traveled. He dropped out of school and did “irresponsible” things that lead him to becoming one of the most successful people in the world.

You have also stumbled across the power of ‘journaling’. That is, when you write and write about what is troubling you; while you write the answers appear. Keep up with that process if you want to gain more and more clarity.

Rock on,
Garret

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