Thank you

Ceanlia

you have been a godsend to all the people around the world who are crying for help.
thanks, chris

Thank you with all my heart, Garret; I have come alive.

i dunno. i was looking around at entrainment websites and i had typed in adhd because i read in make magazine’s article on constructing a sound/light entrainment machine that theta and delta entrainment can exacerbate adhd.

of course, this seemed totally counterintuitive, given my previous successes with meditation and so forth.

My girlfriend is going through a lot of crap tonight. she’s always had problems with severe insomnia and she’s also an avid artist, making among other things, ceramic jewelry and acrylic paintings. Meanwhile, she’s trying to get an associates in psychology because she wants to help people out. now, her art and tools and her are all crammed into a minuscule studio apartment which her job doesn’t really help her afford.

and so now, she’s a month behind on rent and the next month’s payment is due this week. Meanwhile her car broke down in front of a grocer across town. I think she said she has forty dollars to her name. it really is quite maddening.
this upcoming semester, she’s planning on taking three courses on top of her job and I honestly don’t know if she can pull it off.

I will be out of town, taking classes at a college seven hours away, trying to learn about the solar industry and things. i’m going to be undertaking a two year program to give me an associates degree. i’m also studying HVACR (heat transfer) by reading a textbook i found, so when i’m through with that, i’d like to take the EPA’s mandatory certification course. I have no doubt that solar panels and air conditioners would be a match made in heaven.

i was intrigued by what your banner said. it reads like a scary resume. it reminds me of claims made by certain people, so i feel like i know you in a vague respect. I listened to the secret to the secret and i thought a lot of things you said were really beautiful. the analogy you drew to the boring movie just seemed so perfect for that moment, because it reminded me of my girlfriend and myself. struggle struggle. and what you said about love…

i believe everything is interconnected, but i don’t know if i would say that everything as a whole has an “intention” or that it’s here for an intentional reason. (God) but you know, it’s here.
it’s here.

and i think that when we use terms like “purpose” and “intention” and “plan” and “good” to talk about reality as a whole, we’re really just using the best words available to us to try to describe something that we can’t comprehend, but who could deny the intuition of such things?
i mean, after all, it is here. isn’t it?

i don’t know. i don’t know if it’s all planned out and the synchronism’s of life are there FOR us, but they’re there anyway, aren’t they?

i was telling someone earlier tonight that the highest satisfaction we could find in life is through service. and when other’s “prayed” tonight, i “hoped” that when people (from the holy men to the militants) saw their fellows, that they would see their mothers. that they would see their children. that they would see their savior.
so. you hit home when your secret behind the secret was love. it’s odd the way we always keep returning to that point, isn’t it?

Something has always bothered me about success books that recommend “focusing only on exactly what you want”…. Did Richard Branson at age 17 sit down and say, “I am going to be a billionaire?” Did Steve Jobs?

I don’t think so. They followed their passions and enjoyed the ride. Huge distinction.

Cheers & Regards,
Kurt